Yummy! Healthy Food

So I have been trying really hard to get Allen to embrace a new healthy lifestyle with me, which is not easy. He has always been used to eating unhealthy foods and large portions, but now I decided that in order for him to save his life and for me to save mine's I had to just force him. So while i'm up here visting for the weekend I made sure that he had at least some healthy food instead of what I always did by feeling guilty that I don't spend time with him and just buying him Wendy's or Burger King or Popeye's or whatever other fast food place he wants. Yesterday we cooked a healthy meal. Well he actually baked some chicken with barbecue sauce and had some baked potatoes as a side dish while I made sure to prepare a healthy salad and for dessert I made an fruit salad. So here are the pics...

Cucumber and Lettuce Salad

Apple and Banana Salad

Let's hope me and Allen can stick to this new healthy way of eating for the rest of our lives.

Wow! It's Been Almost Nine Months

So I haven't been bloggin' regularly like I said I would because a lot has happened to me since I last blogged. I met a wonderful man named Allen Lewis. He proposed to me and were engaged. We moved in together in June. I lived with Allen and his brother Jason and their grandmother Nancy in a trailer in Beach Park, IL. Which is close to Waukegan. I lived with them for approximately 2 months. From July to August and in September me and Allen moved to Kenosha, Wisconsin got married and we lived there for 4 months. We had a very nice 2 bedroom apartment and even had a roommate live with us in November. His name was Josh. He and his gf Page stayed with us for a month. He had to move because there are no jobs in Kenosha. He moved to South Dakota. Me and Allen thought about moving with him but we decided to stay in the Chicagoland area since our families are nearby. Well in January we had to give up the apartment so that I could move back home with my dad so that I could take care of him. His health was on a decline and he could hardly walk plus his vision got bad and was now legally blind. Being a good daughter I decided to take care of him and sacrifice being with Allen. He also made the sacrifice because he is a good-kind hearted man. He went back to stay with his brother and grandma until we could find an apartment in Chicago and figure things out. It's hard because I don't work and Allen can pretty much cover rent but nothing else. I hate knowing he is around so much temptation. Foodwise I mean. We had made so much progress those 4 months we were at the apartment. Allen was losing weight and his legs weren't as swollen anymore. I need to get Allen out of there or else he wont make it. But, at the same time I have to take care of myself too. My diabetes has been bad and now they want to get me on insulin shots. I started working out in the mornings. Christina (my best friend) comes to pick me up everyday to go to the gym to work out. I get on the treadmill for 30 to 45 minutes. I have actually been going for a week now. I am going reluctantly because I am so big that my body gets tired easily and my legs are sore, but I know in the end I will lose weight and exercise will be easier for me the more I do it. I am going to visit Allen and spend the weekend with him after I work out tommorow. Then I will be back on Monday since my dad has his surgery next week. I am also going to work on my diet. I have been eating big meals and I need to eat 7 small meals throughout the day. I also bought protein powder and a mini-blender so that I can make protein shakes in the morning for when after I work out. I got some fresh strawberries to mix with the vanilla powder. I hope this will help me to lose the extra pounds I have packed on due to stress and depression.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009 I'm back!!!

Wow so much has happened since I last posted a blog. It's already May. I can't beleive it. I stopped blogging about 6 months ago. Well right now i'm about the same weight I was when I made the last entry in October. I'm not going doing Jenny Craig anymore, but I started on a plan similar to it that I found on e-diets. I am still struggling with what kinds of foods to eat and how much. I am proud of the fact that I have stopped eating fast food. That was the reason why I kept gaining weight or not losing. I have a new plan and a new man. Maybe? I don't know i'm sorta starting out with someone, but we will see what happens. It's been a year since I broke up with my ex and now it seems like i'm finally over him. Also 4 years ago yesterday I had just returned from China. I was litterally on top of the world. On the great wall of China. I climbed 1,000 steps. How many people can say that they ever did that. I didn't go to school last semester, but i'm going back next month. I decided to just trust God with my life and my future. I can't worry about tommorow. All I can do is focus on today. Well I'm also back on Youtube posting video blogs. My new Youtube name is OoStarCareBearoO. So hopefully I will keep that channel for good. I hate that I keep closing my accounts, but I made a promise to people that I would stay on Youtube until I got to my goal. Which means I will be on Youtube for awhile. I am committing to posting at least 2 videos a month. Maybe more. Well I think that this is all I want to catch everyone who reads this blog up on. I will keep posting more blogs soon. I hope!

Sunday, October 12

So the results on Friday at the weigh-in were not good. I gained so now i'm at 407. It was a one-pound gain so i'm not freaking out. I am glad I caught it on time. I am going to get back on track this week. I expect to have a perfect Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. I am going to stick just to the Jenny Craig menu. When I follow it perfectly I always have a drop. Besides sticking to the plan. I am going to exercise everyday. I doggysit for my friend and she said that I could take her dog for a walk so that's what I'm going to do. I am going to take Jaxson for a walk in the park. I am going to charge my ipod so that I can listen to music. I'm going to drink at least 8 glasses of water. I am going to see what doing all these things does for my body. I am also going to work on my sleep not napping during the day so I can fall asleep at night. Have a great week everybody!

21 Days Left

With less than 21 days left for my birthday. The clock is ticking and i'm running out of time to lose the 10 lbs I want to lose by my bday. That is the birthday gift I am giving myself this year. Celebrating that i'm not in the fourest something I haven't been able to do for the past 3 years. So what steps am I taking to ensure that I reach my goal? Well number 1 i'm starting to eat breakfast in the mornings. It's a pain to get up early but I do it just so that I can eat something. Starving all day and coming home at 2pm made it so difficult to not be starving that I wanted to eat everything in sight so I would binge. Eating two meals in one breakfast and lunch and some days even dinner as one whole giant meal. I had been doing that over the years so much. The second thing to ensure that I reach this goal is sleep. I wasn't getting any sleep at night which made me exhausted and I had no energy to want to go and exercise. So then I would come home exhausted from school and fall asleep. But only before having 2 huge meals at once. I have been keeping myself up all day so that by the time night comes i'm dead tired. I have managed to get in a good solid 5 hours before school. The third thing is starting to incorporate more activity into my daily life. I have struggled with this last one. I am not exercising at all. The only exercise I get is walking from the parking lot to the school and back. I am proud of the fact that I still have not taken the elevator I instead climb the stairs. So these are the things that need improvement. I'm sure that once I have all of these things down solid I will see the pounds come off. Also I have to make sure to drink lots of water which is a huge struggle for me. And sticking to just my Jenny Craig food and nothing else. I like the food from Jenny but sometimes my body craves fast-food. I think its more on those days that i'm super-stressed out or depressed. Tommorow is my weigh-in at Jenny let's hope it's a good one since last time I went up from 402 to 406. Oh yeah and as for the results of the biopsy they were inconclusive which means that I had to have a second biopsy performed that same day so I should be getting the results in a few weeks. I will keep the people following my blog posted.

October 1

Gosh! I can't believe it's been over two weeks since I last posted a blog. I said I was going to blog everyday, but I have just been too exhausted. School is extremely stressful and I had 3 papers due this week. I have been doing a lot of emotional eating. I have not been to Jenny Craig in a while so I have no clue where I stand right now. It's less than 30 days until my birthday and I really wanted to lose 20 lbs by then, but I guess any weight loss right now is an added bonus. I want to lose 10 lbs by my birthday. That's gives me a good solid 4 weeks to work on that goal. I am going to get back on track this friday since I will have no excuses. My dad was having some financial problems so I couldn't afford the Jenny Craig food and without it I admit i'm pretty lost. I have even considered looking for a part-time job so that I can afford to buy the food on my own. I have to go in tommorow morning to get the results of the biopsy I had a few weeks ago. I have been losing sleep over this. I hope that everything turns out ok. Well it's late and I should go to bed. But i'm too anxious to sleep. I guess I will just watch movies until the sun comes up. I will be waiting all day in the waiting area so I will just get some sleep there.

9-11 Update

Today is 9-11 a date that will go down in history. The day the towers came down. I remember waking up that morning and turning on the tv ( I do that in the morning so I can see what time it is so I wont be late for school). I saw the plane crash into one building. I thought can this be real. I headed off to school not knowing what was going on. I turned on the radio to hear that the Sears tower might be a target that's when I knew something was wrong and I headed back home. My brother was downstairs with my dad. I was scared I didnt' know what was happening. It still scares me sometimes that it might happen again. So it was hard going into the hospital this morning and knowing I was there for a check up. It is a number that causes panic. I wanted the doctor to tell me I was ok and I had no tumors but she didn't she said I have to do a biopsy instead. I went numb. But I am not going to let this affect me I wont give it power. I know God is in control. So I have to go back in 3 weeks for the results. I know God will get me through this. As far as my weight-loss i'm 402 and i'm down 5 lbs since last week when I was 407. I am going to try to lose 3 lbs so I can get out of the fourest for good. I am excited about this week I will continue to walk as much as possible and work on getting sleep. I will not quit!