21 Days Left

With less than 21 days left for my birthday. The clock is ticking and i'm running out of time to lose the 10 lbs I want to lose by my bday. That is the birthday gift I am giving myself this year. Celebrating that i'm not in the fourest something I haven't been able to do for the past 3 years. So what steps am I taking to ensure that I reach my goal? Well number 1 i'm starting to eat breakfast in the mornings. It's a pain to get up early but I do it just so that I can eat something. Starving all day and coming home at 2pm made it so difficult to not be starving that I wanted to eat everything in sight so I would binge. Eating two meals in one breakfast and lunch and some days even dinner as one whole giant meal. I had been doing that over the years so much. The second thing to ensure that I reach this goal is sleep. I wasn't getting any sleep at night which made me exhausted and I had no energy to want to go and exercise. So then I would come home exhausted from school and fall asleep. But only before having 2 huge meals at once. I have been keeping myself up all day so that by the time night comes i'm dead tired. I have managed to get in a good solid 5 hours before school. The third thing is starting to incorporate more activity into my daily life. I have struggled with this last one. I am not exercising at all. The only exercise I get is walking from the parking lot to the school and back. I am proud of the fact that I still have not taken the elevator I instead climb the stairs. So these are the things that need improvement. I'm sure that once I have all of these things down solid I will see the pounds come off. Also I have to make sure to drink lots of water which is a huge struggle for me. And sticking to just my Jenny Craig food and nothing else. I like the food from Jenny but sometimes my body craves fast-food. I think its more on those days that i'm super-stressed out or depressed. Tommorow is my weigh-in at Jenny let's hope it's a good one since last time I went up from 402 to 406. Oh yeah and as for the results of the biopsy they were inconclusive which means that I had to have a second biopsy performed that same day so I should be getting the results in a few weeks. I will keep the people following my blog posted.

End of Week Two of School

So I managed to survive two weeks of school so far. Which is incredible. I had a very bad weekend. On Saturday I was extremely depressed. I even contemplated dropping out of school. Convincing myself that I wasn't ready. I was stressing out about a paper I had due Monday. I couldn't concentrate at all. But thank God for Nadia my angel. She is the one who got me through this. I don't know what I would have done if she wasn't here to talk me through this. I get easily overwhelmed but she has taught me to take things one step at a time. My eating has been horrible I wouldn't be surprised if I gained another 10 lbs this week. The scale read 407. Which means i'm still down 21 lbs. Since I started at 428 the day I started Jenny back in March. Let's hope I can start new this school week. I plan on getting back on track on Monday. So here are the goals for this week...

• Take water to school
• Take stairs avoid temptation to take elevator
• Eat breakfast
• Sleep early
• Wake up early
• Spend time with God
• Do my homework
• Exercise
• Seek counseling for depression
• Take all meds and prescriptions
• Do something fun