My first consultation

So I went to my first consultation with the bariatric doctor for my upcoming weight-loss surgery. I am told that I am a good candidate for the surgery. She asked me a few questions about how long I have been over-weight and if I have ever tried to lose weight on my own. Well I told her, I have been fat most of my life. About 25 years and i'm only 30. And that I have been on a giant rollercoaster of diets. I am at the point where I feel that this weight will never come off unless I seek medical attention. My "weight problem" has become more than a problem. It has really messed my whole life up. I was asked what my goal weight was and I responded 200 lbs, well actually 199 just to say I am in the 100's. I told her I never plan to be a skinny girl. I just want to be half my size. She was pleasantly surprised at my answer and told me that it was a very reasonable goal. Then she asked me another question which was hard to answer. She asked me if my family was happy and supportive about my decision and I told her yes and no. My dad said the surgery would not work for me and how I would gain the weight back or not lose it at all and how I would fail. That shocked her, but I told her how she doesn't know what it is to be in a traditional Mexican family. Parents always down their children. It's really sad. I do that sometimes with Allen and I hate being so negative. Allen is probably worried that if I lose weight, I might leave him, but I never will. He is my husband. And as far as other people, well I haven't told everybody and I know that my "friends" will not care or maybe jealous, except for my true best friend. Well enough of this I will blog soon... probably around my next appointment which will be soon in a few weeks. See ya until then.

He came for the sick, not the healthy!

As I embark on a journey of weight-loss surgery, I try to understand why my life is going this way. I keep going back to the scriptures in the bible about how God sent His son Jesus for a reason. He sent Him to earth for a purpose. Yes, His ultimate purpose was to die on the cross for our sins, so that we could get to heaven and be with God, but not only did He come to saves us and give us His gift of salvation, but He was sent to heal us. I love the scripture that says that He has come so that we may have life and have it more abundantly. I have kept rejecting God's healing, and have only been accepting His salvation. I have already been saved and I didn't want to be greedy and ask for more. I just know that Jesus said He came for the sick and not the healthy. Jesus is the ultimate Doctor. He has healed my heart. I can imagine how scarred it is, but Jesus wants to heal my body now. I have so many visions of seeing me and my husband dancing and walking by the lake, like a normal healthy couple. Enjoying also the pleasures of sex within marriage. I get so down on these things. Lord help me through this hard process and heal my body now. I want to be healthy in mind, spirit, and body, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.

PCOS

Well I went to see the gyne specialist and the bad news is that they wont do anything permanent to stop me from bleeding and the good news is that, there is no good news. I have PCOS which stands for Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome and it's related to the reason why I have been bleeding abnormally. So, yeah that's the situation. So, the only way to treat this is to start losing weight so that the hormones in my body, regulate themselves. I wish that I didn't have to deal with so many illnesses, but I do. So, now I'm going to try to lose at least 10lbs a month and see what that does for my health. Hopefully it will improve, significantly. I am thinking about going back to the Chris Powell diet and seeing if that helps. It's going to be hard because I love food and I love to eat. Lord, Help me!

Blood Loss

So... Yeah. Well the bleeding didn't completely stop. I kept bleeding, but not as bad. I stopped taking the birth control pills after having to go to the ER because I thought I might have blood clots because of the pills. So, my health declined a lot. My heart was racing and I felt like I couldn't get oxygen in my lungs. So my blood was very low, but not low enough for them to want to give me any blood. So after spending a night in the hospital, they finally decided to start some blood transfusions. They gave me 2 pints of blood and that was it. I was probed and prodded and tested for everything. Now I have to follow up with a gyne for something to do about the bleeding since pills is definitely out of the question. I am just so tired of dealing with this. I want a permanent solution. I really hope it happens. I have to get back on track with my weight-loss and with life.

I'm Alive!

Well It's been 2 months since I wrote a blog and the reason why is that shortly a week or two after starting the Chris Powell weight-loss plan, I got really ill. Not because of the diet. I'm not blaming him, but I just got sick with my period. The two weeks I was on the plan, I really didn't lose any weight, but my diabetic numbers were down a lot. So, although I was discouraged about the weight-loss, I was encouraged because my diabetes seemed to be getting better. Well that all ended once I started bleeding. And bleed I did a lot. I bled so much I had to start wearing adult diapers just to hold in all the blood that was gushing out of me. I held on for as long as I could, but after a month, I was just tired and ready to give up, plus, I was having the most horrible menstrual cramps that made me cry everyday. I went to the ER and they did nothing for the bleeding, but kept me in the hospital for my diabetes since when I got there it was around 500. I had stopped taking my insulin and was eating and drinking whatever I wanted. I was depressed and didn't care about my health anymore, I just wanted the bleeding to end. So, after that I went to the doctor and she prescribed me some pills, which is basically birth control. So, I am now taking birth control, not for actual birth control, but for my body not to bleed. I have been on them for about 10 days and the bleeding has stopped, thank God. Now, I can start to feel like a normal person again. I have even been wearing makeup, something that I feel I have to do since I look like a pale and sick person. Well, now what? I didn't want to start dieting right away since I have anemia and figure my body needs all the nutrients and vitamins, I can give it. But, I decided that I was going to have a diet where I ate a lot of fruits, vegetables, lean meats, and whole grains. I am not sure whether or not I will be back on the Chis Powell plan, anytime soon, but I know that I can't give up on my weight-loss journey no matter how many setbacks, I encounter. Like the Miley Cyrus song says, it's not how fast I get there it's about what's waiting for me on the other side. It's the climb. It's all about the climb! So, see you at the mountain top my friends when we all get there, or the finish line if you are more of a runner than a climber. God Bless you all.

Choose to Lose!

I can't beleive it's been 3 months since I last posted something on here. I was in a bad place last year with a lot of stress, not that this year has been stress-free, but it's getting better. A lot of things happened last year, good and bad. I want this year to be a new start for me, a new beginning and it has. I got married in Decemeber and moved back to my dad's house. And even though unfortunately my nasal polyp came back. God sent a great doctor to just yank it out and remove it. I feel so blessed right now. I am in the first week of my new journey. Except this time i'm not alone in it. Allen is right here beside me. We have decided to commit to a weight-loss plan. Trainer Chris Poweel wrote a book called Choose to Lose and it helped a man who was 600lbs to lose 300lbs. I am excited to see what the outcome of this is going to be. I really don't want to get weight-loss surgery, whether it be gastric-bypass or lap-band. I just want to be healthy and happy and at a normal weight. My goal weight is still 199lbs. My starting out weight was 429lbs and at the end of this week, I will know where I stand. Allen's starting weight is 587lbs and hopefully he will be the Biggest Loser this week. I will try to post some pics of me and Allen and hopefully we will track our progress through photos, the scale, and our clothes. I am not buying any new clothes for me or Allen until we lose at least a significant amount of weight, or until our pants start to fall down and we can't wear our clothes because they are too big. I want to thank God for putting my husband Allen into my life and helping us both to love and support each other.