It's been a while...

I am so sorry that it's been awhile since I blogged. Almost 9 months actually. I have been going through a lot in my marriage and in my personal life. It's hard to make time to post these blogs. I even took time off YouTube, because of what's been happening. We have been renovating upstairs and also dealing with my dad and his newfound illness and just recently Allen's hospital scare. I haven't had time to do anything. I even cancelled all of my surgery appointments at Loyola. Right now the only thing that I have been treating is my bipolar disorder with medication and therapy and also my diabetes. I have to pick up my new insulin tomorrow which is really sad and scary at the same time. I have to take U-500 where before I was taking U-100. The difference is that this new insulin is 5 times stronger than the original insulin. I just hope that I don't make any mistakes. I am even thinking that I should pre-fill the syringes so that there is no possible room for error. I really want to reverse my diabetes, but am I still young enough to do it, or will I have to deal with needles for the rest of my life? I am hoping to keep working on myself, in the midst of all the confusion and all the chaos. I know change is possible, but the question is will it be with or without surgery?