My first consultation

So I went to my first consultation with the bariatric doctor for my upcoming weight-loss surgery. I am told that I am a good candidate for the surgery. She asked me a few questions about how long I have been over-weight and if I have ever tried to lose weight on my own. Well I told her, I have been fat most of my life. About 25 years and i'm only 30. And that I have been on a giant rollercoaster of diets. I am at the point where I feel that this weight will never come off unless I seek medical attention. My "weight problem" has become more than a problem. It has really messed my whole life up. I was asked what my goal weight was and I responded 200 lbs, well actually 199 just to say I am in the 100's. I told her I never plan to be a skinny girl. I just want to be half my size. She was pleasantly surprised at my answer and told me that it was a very reasonable goal. Then she asked me another question which was hard to answer. She asked me if my family was happy and supportive about my decision and I told her yes and no. My dad said the surgery would not work for me and how I would gain the weight back or not lose it at all and how I would fail. That shocked her, but I told her how she doesn't know what it is to be in a traditional Mexican family. Parents always down their children. It's really sad. I do that sometimes with Allen and I hate being so negative. Allen is probably worried that if I lose weight, I might leave him, but I never will. He is my husband. And as far as other people, well I haven't told everybody and I know that my "friends" will not care or maybe jealous, except for my true best friend. Well enough of this I will blog soon... probably around my next appointment which will be soon in a few weeks. See ya until then.

He came for the sick, not the healthy!

As I embark on a journey of weight-loss surgery, I try to understand why my life is going this way. I keep going back to the scriptures in the bible about how God sent His son Jesus for a reason. He sent Him to earth for a purpose. Yes, His ultimate purpose was to die on the cross for our sins, so that we could get to heaven and be with God, but not only did He come to saves us and give us His gift of salvation, but He was sent to heal us. I love the scripture that says that He has come so that we may have life and have it more abundantly. I have kept rejecting God's healing, and have only been accepting His salvation. I have already been saved and I didn't want to be greedy and ask for more. I just know that Jesus said He came for the sick and not the healthy. Jesus is the ultimate Doctor. He has healed my heart. I can imagine how scarred it is, but Jesus wants to heal my body now. I have so many visions of seeing me and my husband dancing and walking by the lake, like a normal healthy couple. Enjoying also the pleasures of sex within marriage. I get so down on these things. Lord help me through this hard process and heal my body now. I want to be healthy in mind, spirit, and body, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.