Happy 30th Birthday to me!!!

Well i'm no longer in my twenties anymore. Now I am 30. Wow! How time flies. I think I wasn't prepared for this. I feel like my 20's were a dream. I went from 19 to 30 over night. I actually had to let my dream of becoming a mother die this year. I always said if I didn't have children by the age of 30 I never would. So, what now? I am going to try to live out my 30's with good health. I don't know if this will be possible. I have so many illnesses already. I can only hope that things get better. I am optimistic about my future, but sometimes I can lose hope quickly. I pray that my remaining time on this earth is productive for God. I feel like most of the time I am just wasting space here on this planet. God thank you for never leaving me even though I never make time for you like I should. Please Heavenly Father forgive me. I need to change my way of living. But, I feel old and worn out. Sighs... sorry that this blog was so depressing. I will try to update soon. Peace out people.